Updated: Aug 24
* Although written as flash fiction, most of this is true.
Michael is a confident, outgoing and very successful insurance salesman. Who was killing himself.
I had been going to some group psychology for awhile, and one day, he asked to tag along. Once there, he surprised me by immediately volunteering to go first.
He then dropped his head and remained silent. I could not imagine what was coming. The eight of us waited; the silence stretched.
Finally, he began mumbling. As he raised his head, I heard, "-- take it anymore. I just can’t. I'm killing myself.”
He dropped his head again, as he tried to stifle the tears.
I was dumbfounded. Michael was the strongest guy I knew.
The psychologist —call me Dr. J— casually leaned back and waited. The rest of us sat uncomfortably, looking everywhere but at each other.
Eventually Dr. J said, “You are very hard on yourself.”
With his head still down, Michael murmured, “Yes.”
Dr. J asked, “How?”
Michael looked up, eyes red and said, “I work day and night.”
“Do you eat lunch?”
He nodded and said, “After a morning of cold-calling, I usually grab something at my desk.”
“Not usually. I have potential clients to see. It takes a lot to be successful.”
“Do you put yourself off when you have to use the toilet?”
Michael hesitated and reluctantly nodded.
“After you have pushed yourself through a long day, and night, how do you push back?”
Michael seemed to understand the question and quietly answered, “I stay up too late watching movies.”
“I eat the whole time.”
“I drink too much.”
Dr. J paused and then asked, “Of what?”
He hesitated again and finally admitted, “I recently switched from beer to bourbon.”
Michael and I had been friends for years, and I wondered if I knew him at all.
Dr. J said, “So, the harder you push yourself, the harder you find yourself pushing back.”
I blurted, “You make it sound like he is two people.”
Dr. J nodded and said, “We humans are made up of various parts, and we switch between them. Some people have a strong side that pushes/criticizes, which brings out another side that rebels.
"The stronger we push and criticize, he added, the stronger we find ourselves pushing back.
"And Michael is a good example. He pushes hard through the day, often denying himself the basics, like food and the toilet; then later, he rebels with behavior that he ends up regretting.
"And those regrets begin another round of criticism.”
He turned to Michael and asked, “Who are you, the Pusher or the Rebel?”
Michael seemed to finally have his emotions under control and said, “Uh, both I guess.”
“No!” yelled Dr. J. “Neither!!!”
He held the silence and then forcefully said, “You are the one who will release the struggle.”
Michael looked confused.
Dr. J glanced at each of us, as he said, “Thoughts and feelings are not the same as actions. You may be feeling and thinking like a Pusher, or a Rebel, but you can choose to act differently!"
He turned back to Michael and asked, “How would someone like you be living if he were not killing himself?”
Michael was silent for awhile, then said, “Well, they would take time out for breakfast, as well as lunch and dinner.”
“They would take more time for themselves on the weekends.”
“And they would find some fun things to do in that time off.”
Michael had begun talking faster: “They would take an occasional
evening off, blocking out the time on their planner.
"And they would cut back on the eating and drinking at night.”
Dr. J smiled, as he said, “And they would be able to cut back, because they would be giving themselves more and pushing themselves less.”
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