(67) Feel More (& Free Yourself)

Updated: Aug 25


Part 1 is for those who mostly feel one emotion (mine was irritability / anger).

Part 2 is for those who feel a range of emotions and want to release the negative ones.


1. I watched my spaceship circling round and around, and then, suddenly, it disappeared. My mother found me crying, shirt soaked, hand deep in the toilet. Pulling me into her arms, she murmured, “Don’t cry dear; it's alright. Don’t cry.”

That evening, I was calling my dog.

As I stepped off the back porch, my father broke the news: Fellow had bitten the mail carrier, and Animal Control had taken him away.

My mother tried to console me, saying again and again, “It’s okay Dear. Don’t cry. It will be alright. Don't cry.”

Finally, my father yelled, “Stop that crying, or I'll give you something to cry about! Stop it now!”

“And you did,” said the tall, bald psychologist, Dr. J (who my wife had forced me to see).

“Did what?” I asked, opening a clenched fist.

“Why did you want this session?” countered Dr J, who had an annoying habit of switching topics.

“You know, my, uh, wife left me.”

“Why?”

“She says that I don't share myself, that I am too distant.”

“And so you are,” he said. “At forty-two years old, you continue to obey your parent’s directive: ‘Don’t feel.’”

“But I feel!”

“What?” he challenged, “What do you feel?”


“I, uh, anger,” I said.

I realized my fist had closed again and casually opened it (hoping he did not notice.

Dr. J leaned forward and said, “Anger is often an ‘instead of ’ emotion, a


defensive emotion. When was the last time you felt something else, like


hurt for example?”

I sat thinking, searching my memory, reaching back. Dr. J finally motioned with his hands to hurry up. I blew out an exasperated breath, admitting defeat.

Dr. J smiled sadly and said, “Your wife just left you.”

He let that sink in and added, “You stop yourself from feeling those negative emotions, which also keeps you from feeling more of the positive ones. If you felt more, you could share more, with your wife and others.”

I hated the whine in my voice, as I asked, “How am I supposed to do that?”

He countered, “A few years ago, when your mother died, how did you handle it?”

“I went right back to work,” I said, with a touch of pride.

“And last week when your wife left?”

“I, uh, I've been working more.”

“Working more,” he repeated voice flat. “And when you are not working, what do you do?”

I shook my head, trying to keep up with him: “Uh, I like to read, watch movies or hang out with friends.”

Then I blurted, “Wait! I don't understand!”

“Come on,” said Dr. J. “At the first sign of a negative feeling, you distract yourself with work, a movie or people.”

“No!” I blurted. “I've been working more because I have the extra time.”


“Do you snack when you're not hungry?”

I reluctantly admitted I did.

“So, there is another way that you avoid negative feelings. And


there are many other ways. Some people use: alcohol and/or drugs, gambling, food and sex to name a few. Addictions are basically distractions, ways to avoid feeling negative.”

“Alright, okay,” I said, “just tell me what I have to do to bring my wife home.”

“You must be willing to feel uncomfortable.”

“Okay, I can do that,” I said. “I am willing to feel uncomfortable. Is that it?”

Dr. J laughed and said, “In that first moment, when you want to begin what might be a distraction STOP. Take a moment to gently ask yourself what you are feeling.”

I opened my mouth to reply, but Dr. J said, “Also, when you feel irritable or angry, take a peek underneath and, again, ask yourself what is really there.”

He pushed himself out of the chair and began pacing, something I was not allowed to do.

He continued, “And whenever you catch even the hint of a feeling, voice it. Say, ‘I feel sad, hurt, afraid’ or whatever you even guess you might be feeling.”

He was now motioning with his hands and waving his arms.


“Say it aloud. Say it several times. Shout it from the rooftops!!!” he yelled.


I began to laugh and abruptly stopped.


“Hurt." I said. "When my wife left, I felt hurt; angry too, very angry. And hurt.” My eyes began to tear.


I thought, "Maybe this counseling stuff isn't such a good idea."


Part 2: If you already feel a number of emotions and want to...


Release Negative Emotions (like bitterness) Forever



When I was eleven, my cousin stole my birthday money—all of it.

As a young man, the love of my life told me she was moving, out of state, in a few days! And nothing was said about staying in


touch.

Later in life, a co-worker went on a campaign of backstabbing lies to the boss. And he got what he wanted. My position as supervisor.

Have you noticed how easy it is to be bitter?

I hope not, but if so, you will know how hard it is to stop; and rightfully so, because being hurt gives us certain, undeniable rights.

We have the right to feel angry, resentful and even hateful, if that is what we are feeling; and we have the right to hold onto our bitterness as long as we want, decades even; we even have the right to make ourselves sick with it.


Yes, sick. Studies show that when I am sinking into a negative emotion (like bitterness), my body is tightening, breath shortening and blood pressure rising.



A long period of negativity can cause permanent medical damage and even shorten life; and it does.

What makes it all worse, what makes it absolutely appalling, is that the target of my bitterness is out there living life; he or she is not feeling much if any of this; her or him is entirely unaware or completely ignoring me.

For those caught in this agonizing web of pain, for all who have at least thought of stopping, the question is How ?


Four steps


1. Know that negative thoughts and feelings keep coming up because they are trying to release.


2. Release? We automatically tighten body and breath to keep from feeling any more of the negative emotion. To get rid of them all, let them pass through you and out, simply by feeling them.

3. Faster: negative emotion always releases faster when we breathe out the tension with each breath; especially relax in the neck, shoulders and stomach. And, of course, feel.


4. Ask: How long will I let those that hurt me keep holding me back, dimming the quality of my life and keeping me from the happiness I deserve?

Even if, by a miracle, the offenders did eventually give us the satisfaction of seeing them apologize/pay, it would still be up to us to move on—to push ourselves on if necessary.


Yes push! Right out the door to pursue our interests and fulfill our dreams.

To choose life. And live it to the fullest.

Emotional Realities

1. A traumatic event or emotional moment? Whatever we do not feel is left behind as emotional baggage.

2. That which is left behind stays hidden until it pops up again; but even hidden, it continues to affect our lives negatively.


3. Feeling a negative emotion always releases it. The more we feel, the more we release (and the less emotional baggage we carry).

4. Feeling negative emotions does not make us negative people. We can be feeling negative and choose to speak and behave in positive ways.


5. Tightening and distracting ourselves to feel less of the negative always means feeling less of the positive (e.g. true surprise, delight and joy).

6. Our inner strength increases a bit every time we feel what we do not want to feel.


One Essential Ingredient


The negative emotions we feel toward others releases faster with forgiveness. And, forgiveness is not about them, it is about freeing ourselves from the pain of those negative events and people. At this link:

Forgiveness is a Path (not a one-time event) and It Includes YOU


Or


All She Ever Wanted Was...

Free


Her: She was saying, “If only I could find the right guy, I would give myself to him, and—

I stopped her and asked, “Give your SELF?”


Her eyes widened as she realized what she had said and what she had been doing.

Him: Free Insights


His business was deep in the red, and he was now desperate.

I asked him, “If there was one person on the planet holding you back, who would it be?”


He immediately said, “My Mother.”


She was giving him money to keep his business afloat.


She had also given him the down payment for his house and had recently taken over the payments. ​


His insight: "I'm 30 years old and still (like a child) dependent on my mother!"


Both Him & Her: The power of a deep insight is that it cannot be unseen; it will tend to keep prodding, motivating and pushing Him and Her into a permanent change (no resolutions needed).


And That Power is Now Yours:

Free


Either one of these 2 simple techniques can bring you a life-changing insight, one that leads to permanent change.

Both are complete (nothing held back)

Both free

And sent directly to your inbox with this link:


How Many ?


How many people, no matter what they try, spend their lives not losing Weight, or in unfulfilling Relationships (or none), or with Money problems or a Stalled career?


But one, eye-widening moment can begin leaving that pain behind

* Imagine seeing the present and past in an instant and knowing that it is no longer you

* Imagine taking control over that part of your life

* And imagine the relief of knowing that you are finally moving on, once and for all.


Click this link and get your free techniques now:

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For more about releasing emotion:

Why Feeling Bad is Good

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/insight-therapy/201009/emotional-acceptance-why-feeling-bad-is-good


How to Feel Your Feelings

https://tinybuddha.com/blog/how-to-feel-your-feelings/



.....Negative emotions? How to accept THAT part of your body: https://www.danielsperaw.com/single-post/How-to-Accept-THAT-Part-of-Your-Body


The Anatomy of Guilt

https://www.danielsperaw.com/blog/72-73-forgive-yourself-stop-new-guilt-too


The very foundation of personal improvement is self-care/self-love. At this link: https://www.danielsperaw.com/blog/the-essence-of-personal-improvement

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